July 28, 2009

parting words

Maybe it's not time yet for you to come to terms with certain things for yourself.

The halfway people. At least, it's a way. We will see ourselves through whatever it is, sometimes with the help of more arms than our own.

Count blessings. Whenever we can.

If the year 2012 even matters, we should be all doing just fine between now and then.

Our time is now, but it's not our turn yet. Hold on.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:29

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one of those conversations...

me: I am already in the team. Karen has put me on her woman Futsal team when her Punggol Futsal is up. I'm gonna stand in the middle of the field, wondering what I'm supposed to do.
em: I want to be on your team too.
me: No, you can't. It's a woman's team. Means, no dicks and cocks need apply.
em: But I'm not applying. I'm being head-hunted.
me: (eyes widening, rolls on the floor laughing)

(If you can't appreciate the above joke in the same way that I did, conservative religiosity must have happened to you at some unfortunate point in time.)

xxx

em: Are you going to blog about this?
me: What do you think?
em: Well, if you want, you have to do it quickly. Or you will not remember it by tomorrow.
me: I know. That's why I'm already texting it down in my handphone first.
em: "Dicks and cocks need not apply" and "I'm not applying, I'm being headhunted."
me: (laughs) You don't have to repeat it for me. I can still remember it now.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:12

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July 23, 2009

the maguro is overfished

They don't serve maguro today, cos they can't. They ran out of it. So, I feasted on salmon sashimi. The company? That which I haven't had as much as I'd like these days, cos her station is in Shanghai for the past year-plus.

There's the personal mirror and the social mirror. Okay, there's a proper term for it, a term which you will find in the notes of my Soci module, Self and Society. But, I can't remember it now. Basically, the idea is, how you see yourself, the changes you see/know within yourself may not be visible to others. The image we construct in our everyday life is interpreted differently by ourselves and by others. Sometimes, that image get stuck and it's just not easy to convince others of a change.

But, I believe you. Perhaps cos you said it enough times, in a consistent manner, to me. Everything is valid, everything is true, probable. But, at the end of the day, no matter what we say, what we think, what we desire, the walk can't be talked.

I may understand a little, I may not even. But it's ok, 'cos there's always so much comfortable space between us for differences. All these years. Knowing someone, perhaps, is not about understanding her completely. It's more about creating a comfortable space for differences to be shared and not to be judged.

It was a sweet sms. One of those kinds you'd not expect to receive from a close friend but that's exactly why it's so sweet.

Thank you huh... for mustering all ur energy to while away an afternoon, talking about things and then, the nothing-ness.

Keep looking out, hearing out for your calling. I'm sure it will come in due time.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:54

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one of those conversations...

me: I'm not complaining about my weight gain, you know. I've finally made it into the 'Acceptable' weight range. So, I'm not complaining. But, that will be another 3 inches all round! I can't wear almost all my pants now. Sigh...
wenn: Why can't you just not see it as a bad thing... since you have made it into the acceptable weight range, it's good. Why don't you see it this way... You need new clothes not because you're fat. You can wear normal clothes now. Those clothes you had were all for the malnutritioned.

A best friend is someone who walks in when all the undersized pants get thrown out.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:47

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July 16, 2009

Survival German 101

After listening to some rather funny German songs (like this one) that Emman shared with me, my passion for picking up more German vocab was re-ignited. Here are some of the more important (imho) survival phrase and word list (that I think will take a long, long time for my teacher @ class to arrive at in teaching). This shows that I'm an independent learner and a keen student. Ja?

Was ist los mit dir? >>> What's wrong with you? (can be used in a genuinely unconcerned, and truly exasperated way)
Was auch immer. >>> Whatever. (I think it's supposed to be used in a sentence, and not with the V+V hand gesture)
Überhaupt nicht! >>> Not at all!
Was wollen Sie von mir? >>> What do you want from me?
So ist das Leben! >>> That's life!
Das geil! >>> That's cool!
Das prima! >>> That's great!
Wetten das? >>> Wanna bet on that?
NatÜrlich >>> Naturally (aka "Of course!")

and last but not least...
ficke >>> fuck / shag

*me beams... for being such a keen student!*

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 14:02

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I would like to buy a bowel

I did a quick search online and learnt that if I sh*t at least 3 times a week, I'm still considered to have normal bowel movement and hence, there is no cause for concern.

The normal range can be 3 times a day (never happened, as far as I can remember) to 3 times a week (uhhuh).

To increase my bowel movement, I can do the following:
1. Eat more fibre (which I think, I'm already doing, or trying to do)
2. Drink more water (ditto)
3. Exercise more and regularly (Um... ok...)

It's nothing. I just didn't have much to google on today and suddenly, poo poo came to mind.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 13:56

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July 07, 2009

Pitter, patter

Sat under a parasol, @ Pacific Coffee, Red Dot Museum.

The drink: Caramel Swirl Chillino. The book: The Story of Forgetting. The weather: Cloudy, then rainy. The music: The sound of raindrops hitting hard concrete ground. The mood: Pensive, then sleepy. The company: A Korean couple on the left and two businessmen on the right.

This is how I spend some afternoons, when work can take a backseat and the most engaging thing to happen is to be engrossed in a book, while sipping something comforting to the soul.

The rain was obviously a bonus.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:50

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July 03, 2009

Switching around

I think Em is so clever. The TV was on a Deutsch channel, Deutsche-Welle. I was not watching, but was just struggling to see how many words I could manage to catch and understand. Em said he could understand the programme. When I asked him for the specifics, he said 70 - 80% of what was being said. He proved it when he started telling me what the programme was about.

Ok. My boyfriend is so smart.

Then, we switched to News@11 on Channel U. That's when the scale tipped in my favour. But, lo n behold! Em can read a few Chinese characters now! Pandai!

xxx

I'm growing to be a heavy-bottom. Just returned my mum's measuring tape to her sewing kit in dismay.

5 kg in 8 months, translating to 3 inches all round. Not very funny. Sigh...

xxx

Loitered at Suntec after lunch with Snow. Knowingly strolled into Harris, which was having a clearance sale of 20 - 50% off. Seduced by the books. Ended up with a new novel and a new dessert cookbook in my bag as I stepped out.

Yeah... I'm gonna make desserts. Starting with the apple crumble. Or perhaps the orange syrup crepe. Or the cheesecake. Caramel banana sounds easy enough too.

xxx

All done, all spent. Now I want to sleep.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:10

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